f1renze: (wake up younger)
Since my last birthday, I have:

- Decided not to leave the country for good.
- Ended an eight-year relationship and an engagement.
- Gotten my PhD.
- Obtained permission to stay in the US.
- Turned down a good job offer at home country.
- Found an even more fitting job in the city.
- Started dating someone new.
- Fallen in love.
- Moved to a new place and made it home.

- Never felt happier for as long as I can remember.


Thank you for the birthday wishes. It's a really special one, this time.


Next up:
- Show off the fabulous birthday clock from [livejournal.com profile] absolut3destiny!
- GET A PUPPY, OMG.
f1renze: (resurrect)
In order to protect delicate vidder identities, the amazing genius [livejournal.com profile] dualbunny did uh, THIS.

Please report back when you have resumed breathing.

New Vid!

Aug. 17th, 2006 07:50 pm
f1renze: (in me)
This vid is secretly wearing pantyhose.

Title: Repeat After Me
Artist: Ted Raimi
Source: due South, with additional footage from Queer as Folk: US

Download: HERE (DivX, 25.1 MB).

[livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain and I made this for the VividCon Challenge this year, themed "remix". Many thanks to [livejournal.com profile] pipsqueaky, for squeeing in secret with us, for betaing, and for helping make Club Vivid opening an insane amount of fun. We lovingly dedicate this vid to you, Pipsy.

Because one needs lyrics for these things. )

Long live the Joxer dance!!

New Vid!

Aug. 16th, 2006 01:24 pm
f1renze: (stand back while it burns)
Nothing we can't hold, nothing we can't be.

Song: Ragged Ass Road
Artist: Tom Cochrane
Source: Prison Break
Characters: Michael, Lincoln

Download: HERE (DivX, 21.2 MB).

This is my VividCon Premieres vid this year. Much love and gratitude to [livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain for sending me the song and watching the show so she could see what I was flailing about, for believing that yes, their story can be told despite the fact that the season was still airing and I had to restructure the entire thing mid-way. To [livejournal.com profile] sisabet for helpful feedback and contagious enthusiasm over Michael's toe-cutting, to [livejournal.com profile] renenet and [livejournal.com profile] elynross for amazing, amazing beta genius and priceless encouragement, and to [livejournal.com profile] dualbunny for helping resolve narrative questions at the end. I am the luckiest person in the world.

Lyrics )


Enjoy, and as always, feedback is greatly appreciated.

New Vid!

Aug. 16th, 2006 01:24 pm
f1renze: (maria)
It costs nothing but change.

Song: The Church of What's Happening Now
Artist: Sia
Source: Maria Full of Grace

Download: HERE (DivX, 28 MB).

This is my VividCon Nearly New vid this year. Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain for betaing and incredible support throughout, including watching the movie with me (sniff!). To [livejournal.com profile] sisabet for editing suggestions, to [livejournal.com profile] sdwolfpup for stylistic inspiration and for believing in the vid, and to [livejournal.com profile] renenet for encouragement, and for reminding me that Maria has an appointment that she will keep.

Lyrics )


Enjoy, and as always, feedback is greatly appreciated.

ETA: There was a glitch such that this vid isn't on the VVC DVD set. Probably my fault in filling out the form. Oops!
f1renze: (that other wonder)
I'm back from VividCon and it was fantastic.

I haven't posted in a while, and so much has happened in my life in the last month. But it's all very good and exciting and mostly new and I've just been all "OMG how am I so happy it can't be true?!!"

I was in that state going into the con this year, and god, VVC. Like my life couldn't get any better! I can't believe how well everything went. Those concom llama buttons read "superhuman" in my book. Much love to you all! And, yeah -- throughout the con I got to spend lots of time with my favorite people and meeting awesome new ones and was unstressed about my vids and feeling very comfortable about everything. It was perfect.

I premiered 2 solo vids and 2 collaborations. I hope to post at least the solo ones this week.

I'm too caffeine-deprived to say much more right now, but OMG [livejournal.com profile] pipsqueaky you were so missed! The Joxer dance was not the same without you. Next year, not only will you have to resume your super fabulous role of leading the Club Vivid room to Supernatural Delight, you'll have to sing it, sing it, sing it at Karaoke!!
f1renze: (wake up younger)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [livejournal.com profile] pipsqueaky!!

You are awesome and wonderful and I am *so* happy that you made the move to Chicago and that you're enjoying your new life and that everything is going very very well!

VividCon this year won't be the same without you. But the local peeps and I get to see you whenever we want and maybe we can reenact the whole conference JUST FOR YOU! Especially the Joxer dance!

Have a fabulous day, sweetie. Much love!
f1renze: (beezilla cake)
My dear [livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain arrived in town this afternoon, and we went to celebrate graduation and new Chicago beginnings with [livejournal.com profile] pipsqueaky and [livejournal.com profile] just_eunice and [livejournal.com profile] merryish and [livejournal.com profile] tzikeh and [livejournal.com profile] vagabondage and [livejournal.com profile] shrift. There were massive amounts of crack wings, and tzikeh ordered this v. v. special chocolate cake with black cherry-infused buttercream frosting and filling and fresh bananas. Look at my icon OMG, for that is what the cake looked like! It's the cutest cake I'd ever seen!

We also had champagne and strawberries and Eddie Izzard, but OMG, the CAKE. It's Beezilla over Chicago.

these days

Jun. 21st, 2006 02:18 am
f1renze: (me!)
Things of the good:

- Sharing a cranberry orange muffin with my mother. She leaves in 7 hours and and it's been a lovely visit overall.
- Graduation last Friday. Everything went really smoothly -- no rain, charming speaker, no tripping on stage... But most of all I was happy, and I am very thankful for my friends.
- [livejournal.com profile] renenet's fondness of my dissertation. Just, OMG.
- I finished a vid -- beta-approved and everything! So I'll probably have something new at VividCon after all.
- Rum raisin ice cream.
- Discovering that Teavana just opened at a local mall. They have lots and lots of new flavors, whee!
- I'll get to see [livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain in three days! I am so spoiled and excited and YAY. We'll be hanging out with Chicago peeps! And going to Pride!
- [livejournal.com profile] sisabet and I have decided that after I move to a new apartment, I am so totally totally getting Siberian Husky puppies. Yes, plural -- because I must have two. I will name them Oz and Hyde and sisabet will come visit just to meet them. It's a deal like the eternity of VividCon.


Things of the meep:

- My mother is really unhappy with my staying in the country. It's just different when you see each other in person. I mean, she understands, but I didn't expect the acceptance part to be so... heavy. She even thinks she's "lost" me. I'm gonna have to do more to make this easier for her. And I will.


Things of the cross-your-fingers:

- As I mentioned in my last life update post, this last-minute decision to stay in the country left me feeling so totally unprepared for the next step. But I've been pursuing a couple of openings, both for the kind of work that is just So Freakin' Ideal for me right now. Today I got one of the positions (yay! job!), and I'm waiting on the other. This second one also seems promising, so I *may* have options, OMG. I'm putting this under cross-your-fingers because there's a lot to think about and even if I only have the one option, it's a scary change and I'll need your good thoughts, my friends.


That is all! Just... I can't wait for my life to stabilize.


* f1renze is reading Working Visa info?
f1renze: The H-1B is a nonimmigrant classification used by an alien who will be employed temporarily in a specialty occupation or as a fashion model of distinguished merit and ability.
f1renze: ...FASHION MODEL.
f1renze: i am grouped with fashion model aliens.
renenet: of distinguished merit and ability
renenet: it's the supermodel clause
* f1renze cracks up
sisabet: you totally qualify
* renenet vaguely wonders why supermodel had to be specially noted
renenet: doesn't it count as "specialty occupation"
sweetestdrain: bwah
renenet: because I kind of think it does
sweetestdrain: and what if you're a fashion model *without* merit?
sisabet: do fashion models with merits wear the beta honor chord?
renenet: they wear the beta honor glitter face powder, liz

::has nightmares::
f1renze: (wake up younger)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [livejournal.com profile] dualbunny! You're one of the coolest, kindest, smartest, most talented and insightful people I know, and this combined awesomeness continues to amaze me.

I hope you have tons of fun today. So much love and adoration to you!!

a quote

May. 23rd, 2006 08:37 pm
f1renze: (drama queens)
"Aww... anal rape is not fun." -- [livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain, watching Prison Break 1x19.
f1renze: (like walking the world)
Oh, my god. The last 2+ weeks have been a lot more stress and drama than I ever thought I could handle in an entire lifetime. But it's over now. And not only did I survive, I survived. And right now, all I wanna do is take a moment to appreciate the good stuff.

Because I just turned in the final -- revised, approved, final -- version of my dissertation. This feels more real to me than passing the defense, because everything's now official: I really have the Ph.D.

There's so much I want to say, and those words will come, but right now I'm a useless ball of RELIEF and I need to recover first. But yes.

I did it. It is done.


Note to self: [livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain and [livejournal.com profile] nerdanel are your guardian angels, and Matt Pond PA's "It Is Safe" took you to the homestretch. Remember this.

Oh -- also remember that this is the year your school starts doing online diss submissions, and that this makes you feel so Next Generation, yo.
f1renze: (joy and wonder)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [livejournal.com profile] sockkpuppett!! Your deadly combination of brilliance, creativity, wisdom, and strength continues to inspire, and I feel so lucky to have you as a friend.

I hope you spoil yourself today!
f1renze: (a silver pool of light)
I just came home to a basket of v. beautiful flowers at my door! Thank you so much, [livejournal.com profile] killabeez! I LOVE them. And aww -- the note says "You are the queen of everything!" Wah! ::smooches you HARD::

PS: Dear you all -- I got your comments and IMs and a most glorious sangria post and wow -- I am extremely touched and grateful. Right now I'm just so overwhelmed with many many things, I feel like I might break into 576 million pieces. But I'm trying to work things out, and that's what matters right now. I will get to each of you and do a real update as soon as things stabilize. Sorry for sucking, OMG. I adore you all so much.
f1renze: (like walking the world)
Dear world,

Today I defended my dissertation.

And I passed. I have a LOT of work, still -- the inevitable revisions -- and I hope I can get them done in the 10 days I have allocated before the deadline.

But yes. I have to go now -- people are about to start the celebrations. (OMG, so far there's flowers and candy and champagne and at least 2 outings planned!)

But this is it.

I have a Ph.D.

Love,

Flo
f1renze: (we are surrounded)
This is old news to those following at home, but I'm reporting anyway, if for no other reason than to keep my life events chronicled.

So. )
f1renze: (that other wonder)
[livejournal.com profile] sweetestdrain! Your "care package for Flo's next few weeks" just arrived!!

OMG OMG LET US SEE WHAT'S IN THE BOX:

- An Angel action figure with the Wolfram & Hart wall and his #1 Boss mug... filled with blood!
    Your post-it note: "Think not of how weird Angel's face looks, but instead of how many incredibly inappropriate positions you can put him in w/ the Spike figure! Also - omg THE BOX. Because they'll all float on, all right!"

- A Spike action figure with the giant shanshu-fight cross, the shanshu cup, a Kiss the Librarian mug also filled with blood, and... a cat? Huh!
    "Spike! Spike Spike Spike Spike... He has a KITTEN. How fantastic, yo. And a big cross to whup Angel with. And his Kiss the Librarian mug. And and and. Um. Spike!"
more! )
f1renze: (total art dudeman thing)
OMG insomniac. Entertain me?

Gacked from [livejournal.com profile] spaggel.

If you had me alone, locked up in your house for twenty-four hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you have me do? All comments will be permanently screened because it's a secret. Then repost this in your LJ. You might be surprised with the responses you get.